Le Monde

well what i can honestly say about this luscious track that has me spellbound & somewhat intoxicated at the moment?

i accidentally stumbled on it via a model's website - it was the perfect background accompaniment to fit his persona and image .. but the song being french really drew me in (being the connoiseur that i am in music) - lol ..

i had to enlist the help of my french cousin who is also a musician & artist amongst other things to find the artist - we decided it was one of those deep philanthropic soulful grooves ..

anyway, how surprised was i to find out that the song was actually by thievery corporation .. my cousin's attempt to decipher the lyrics for me led me to googling the translation .. and shocking of me not to know my french as well as i should since my birth certificate is in french & half my family on my dad's side live there!

but here are the lyrics to 'le monde' in french ;)

Je pense bien que le monde est calculé
Je pense bien que tout est encadré
Que nos pensées sont tracées dans l'air auparavant
Et tu crois que la derniere prise
Elle a mis du temps à ta douleur
Ouvre les yeux le monde change
Ah oui je sais qu'un jour
Ah oui je sais qu'un jour
Pour voir plus clair
Tu dois oublier tous les mensonges
Ah le monde change, le monde change
Soulage ton coeur, soulage ton ame
Ah le monde change
Et tu crois que la derniere prise
Elle a mis du temps à ta douleur
Ta douleur, ta douleur
Demain est une autre sortie
Ca fait mal à dire mais j'ai peur, j'ai peur, j'ai peur
Ah le monde change, le monde change
Soulage ton coeur, soulage ton âme
Ah le monde change, le monde change

http://www.actionext.com/names_t/thievery_corporation_lyrics/le_monde.html

Strict Machine | Black Cherry | Happiness

whilst listening to triple j's live simulcast of goldfrapp's concert here last month, i heard 'strict machine' for the first time in years - isn't it funny how music & melody has a way of teleporting u elsewhere without rhyme or reason?

i'm in love .. i'm in love .. i'm in love with a strict machine ...

and we can't forget goldfrapp's other quirky melodic track 'black cherry' ...

and lastly, 'happiness' is absolutely divine ... especially just before the chorus - my favourite part !!!

We're all on a journey to
Finding the real inner you
Make you better (make you better)
(We're here to welcome you)

Time stops still when
You've lost love

Happiness
How'd you get to be Happiness
How'd you get to find Love, real love
Love, love, love

Slow

ok so .. sometimes you just get in that mood - you know the one .. it lingers on and on for days and days .. just lingering in the corners of your erotic mind ..

much like the sexy beats of kylie's 'slow' ..

Our eyes connected
Now nothing's how it used to be
No second guesses

Track in on this feeling
Pull focus close up you and me
Nobody's leaving

Got me affected
Spun me 180 degrees
It's so electric

Don't wanna rush it
Let the rhythm pull you in
It's here so touch it

You know what I'm saying
And I haven't said a thing
Keep the record playing

Slow down and dance with me
Yeah, slow
Skip a beat and move with my body
Yeah, slow

need i say any more? blame it on the boogie beats & eye candy last nite at cream tangerine ...

chemical brothers remix

You Can Do Magic

well well ... yet again, my stars seem to be in cohorts today !!

You are about to get a major wake up call in your career and social areas of your life. Things are about to change in an unmistakeably dramatic way, and while this may challenge some it could lead you to an important and life altering opportunity.

You will have an opportunity to take action on a financial or career opportunity today that can bring significantly positive changes in your income. Follow your intuition - a dream or a gut feeling could lead you to the right person or an authority figure who can help.

i swear i remember loving this song when i first heard it back when i was a wee little lass- back then, my uncles all played the guitar and sang some old 70 / 80s classics .. i just love the first minute of the song - esp. the intro.

without further adieu, here's america with their classic track, 'you can do magic'

Planet Health

wow .. how cool is this song?

there's something hypnotic, dreamy & wonderlust about it - perhaps it's in the melodic nature or perhaps it's the seemingly altruistic & idealistic lyrics ..

actually it's reminiscent of a certain kind of oriental 80s feel to it ..

whatever the case, chairlift (the name of band) deserves kudos for this track .. check it out for yourself!

When I arrived on planet health
In the state of being well
So I altered my self conscious messes
And body images

I visited the food pyramid
In the desert of vitamins
I found a desired heart rate
And a mouth to resuscitate

I am feeling great tonight

I was trained in diversity
In the garden of puberty
Where they Heimlich maneuvered me
And they showed me how to make a baby

I found my friends in the forest of loves
Where we just said no to drugs
Our intercourse was well protected
We made love with each others' eyes

Just Like Heaven | Lullaby | Pictures of You

oh .. all the metaphors this song brings :)

this is the cure's highest ranking video played on youtube to date .. i was mesmerised by their gig last year when i saw them at the entertainment centre. after a couple of decades, their set was tight as ever and long time cure fans were not disappointed!

i totally dig robert smith .. he was a definite cutie back in the earlier days & matured like fine wine - oh, and i've even had a dream or two about him as well .. probably representative of some archetypal projections repressed again .. who knows ?

here's my bittersweet tragic 'just like heaven' song ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORc5Td_T6og

but i've always always had an infatuation with 'lullaby' .. that hypnotic bass beat .. the strings in the chorus .. spiders .. holes .. husky robert smith .. ooooh !!!

and how could i ever forget the epically hauntingly beautiful 'pictures of you' .. this is a definite tear (or soul) jerker track - we've all had that one 'heartbreak' story .. the one that left us in a tragic mess for weeks, months, even years ..

there was nothing in the world that i ever wanted more
than to feel you deep in my heart ...

Diamond Dancer

i fell in love with 'something' about this song a few months ago ..

it makes it all the more mysterious to me when i can't put my finger on it .. it's as elusive as the caverns of the mind and the depths of the soul .. nostalgic interpretations imbued between abstract surrealism and feigned realism ..

here's bill callahan from (smog) with his wispy track 'diamond dancer' ..

Tainted Love

ok just for the heck of it, i'm going to send a dedication out into the ether - no explanations necessary ..

i'll let marilyn manson do the sentiment justice ..

Sol Negro

i'm not sure if i've mentioned my love affair with certain smooth sultry jazz sounds yet .. but i have an immense addiction for the saxophone and the trumpet, not to mention that jazz makes me feel like the way a sassy sensual woman should feel when she's listening and dancing to jazzy tunes ..

i actually heard this song whilst cruising through the foxtel channels at my parents place - the background music is preset to one of the interactive air music channels (usually lounge music) and this song came on. it makes you just want to get up and dance in the lounge room and imagine yourself in havana in a not so seedy bar on the dancefloor ... or perhaps in a high rise chic apartment overlooking a cosmopolitan city like new york (central park west) just on nightfall with a glass of champagne lingering in your hand ..

a girl can dream :)

here's soul ballet with a track called 'sol negro' ..

http://from-classic.homedns.org/download/834527105/06-Soi%20Negro%20(Blank%20Sun).mp3

Memories

well hallelujah!

ever since i left fbi 94.5 FM 3 years ago, i tune in when i can - over the years, my faves have been saturday morning's naked city', weeknights' 'sunsets' and whatever is on at the time when i'm in the car i guess .. but today, a new segment has taken out my top pole position!

'loose joints' on sunday arvos rocked my old retro soul sideways today with a few golden new but 'old' hits! new (to me), because i hadn't heard of the songs before today; old because some of the tunes are from the 70s (when i was born) .. woohoo! i get very excited when i stumble on new old stuff :)

anyway, i heard this rocking song from 70s rock band amadeo with a track called 'memories'. it sounds like it would be featured on the soundtrack to a porn film from the 70s, but i just dig the background riffs alrighty ..

http://stuff.headphones.ru/music/var/Amadeo%20-%20Memories.mp3

Forever

ok it's like this ..

sometimes you love 'em .. and sometimes they drive you round the bend - but family's family right? blood's thicker than water ...

because of some of the shifts i've recently gone through, i've realised that sometimes in life we are constantly being given the chance to be 'tested' on those learnings, to step up and rise to the challenge or adversity each situation may bring us .. every day, in every way ..

anyway, yesterday i heard this track from a melbourne band called 'the emergency' with their track 'forever' - it's a dark dirty electro number .. yeh, another genre close to my heart (being the retro 80's chic that i am) ..

time keeps going on forever ..

i thought i would weave the title into some kind of meaning and significance (given the time & place) along with a shift in consciousness when i heard it ... AND also because it held some relevance to my horoscope today ..

Be gently assertive. Be sensitively strong. Be delicately determined. Be compassionately ruthless. Be aware that the situation you face requires great tenacity and clarity. Be aware too, that there are feelings and fears involved. Regardless of how others behave, you must act impeccably. That doesn't mean allowing yourself to be walked all over. Nor, though, does it mean you can walk over anyone else. Try for an ideal outcome that works for everyone. There's just a chance you might find one.

Walking On Sunshine

now, who could forget katrina & the waves .. ?

i was certainly reminded of them & their classic 80's track on the weekend - who wouldn't be 'walking in sunshine' with three cute guys walking right behind you (see the video clip) :) heeeeyyy ...

it's such a 'feel good' karaoke / dance song - guaranteed to pump those hungry-ass endorphins when in need of a good pick me up :)

ahh .. love seemed so much easier, simpler & fun in the 80's, didn't it ?

i used to think maybe you loved me
now i know that it's true

Intoxicated By Love

i had to share this beautiful rumi verse from 'the gift of love - a collection of readings by deepak & friends - madonna, demi moore, martin sheen, debra winger & others ... (set to luscious middle eastern music) - i bought the cd last night when i met & spoke with deepak himself ..

who of us have not felt rumi's words or been swayed by love's intoxication .. ?

behind the veils intoxicated with love,
i too dance the rhythm of this moving world
i have lost my senses in this world of lovers

With My Eyes Closed

aahhhh .. perhaps it's just best to let the song & lyrics reveal all ...

i won't go into it too much here .. but this song is reminiscent of one of those times when you attract the wrong kinda person into your life - much like a mirror projection of one's own repressed subconscious fears and or desires .. those old patterns repeating themselves again and again .. uh huh, you know what i mean !!

i saw the raveonettes a few months ago when they toured sydney - they're of danish background, via new york and pretty wicked if you're into the more darker synth fuzz sound .. this is one of their more sombre ballad tracks ..

i read a review that described them as the cure meets portishead ? you be the judge of that - here are the raveonettes with their ballad 'with my eyes closed' ..

also - i should mention that i was probably more totally obssessed with this song for weeks 'aly walk with me' - i just couldn't get over the intro & guitar riffs before the chorus .. thanks to a scandinavian mate of mine ;)

original clip



live

Iris

oi .. how could i possibly forget the goo goo dolls' 'iris' from the city of angels soundtrack?

this is one of my fave anchor anthem songs (it has significant archetypal resonance for me again - 'i just want you to know who i am') ..

what i love most is watching john reznik in this live version in buffalo new york on a wet july 4th independence day - all hot .. and all wet .. did i mention wet?

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive

Classic Rock Ballads

on the previous blog theme of soft rock ballads from the 80s & 90s .. i thought it fitting to continue the tribute to some of the top soft rockers that etched their way into my musical memory when i was a mere teen.

i remember hanging out with the year 10 galswhen i was in year 8 - because we caught the same train line .. probably another influence in my diverse musical tastes .. one of the girls had the hots for jon bon jovi. i didn't really understand all the fuss back then - but then again, i was only 13 .. i did however grow to like a couple of their ballads a year or two later - 'i'll be there for you' & 'always' brought back some gory cute memories of high school .. haha ..

then there was meatloaf with 'two out of three ain't bad' & 'i'd do anything for love (but i won't do that)' .. ahh - such classics they were .. i mean he really sang from a raw state, didn't he?

we can't forget the chics either - i absolutely adore concrete blonde's 'joey' .. the empathy of her deep voice just tore open my heart when i first heard it at 15 or something - i loved this song way before i even really got it ..

i just stand by and watch you
fight your secret war
although i used to wonder why -
i used to cry till i was dry
still sometimes i get a strange pain .. inside

and if I seem to be confused
i didnt mean to be with you
and when you said I scared you,
well I guess you scared me too



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ABnPx-gcn6g&feature=related

oh oh .. and i have a soft spot for whitesnake's 'is this love' - man, i reckon i must've lived parallel lives back then .. i don't know how some of these songs resonated with me so much when i was younger .. freaky shit !!

is this love .. that i'm feeling
is this the love .. that i've been searching for
is this love .. or am i dreaming
this must be love
cos it's really got a hold on me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ujnH4yNqL8E

but i'd have to say - guns n roses' 'november rain' was one of the definitive rock ballads of that era ..

i mean, that brilliant piano intro, stephanie seymour looking white hot & slash's guitar solo all in a tragic twisted dark theme of death & transition .. rock meets classical - GNR pulled it off better than any other rock band of their genre ain their time i reckon - again, i probably got the subtle archetypal behind the song long before i really understood its relevance on a more conscious level .. what is with that?

and when your fears subside
and shadows still remain
i know that you can love me
when there's no one left to blame

I Remember You

as an addendum to the last post, i totally dig this live version of skid row's 'i remember you' .. seriously folks, sebastian bach is friggin' awesome - as far as i'm concerned, he is/was the only frontman for skid row worth talking about .. that voice, that enigmatic stage presence - he almost has such a feminine quality about him .. like an uber improved dionysian pansy soft rock ballad god or something ..

it has only taken me nearly a decade to experience a profound psychological realisation .. to really 'feel' it in my bones .. in my core .. to really feel what i did to another person .. another soul - something deep within me stirred by reflection & introspection .. i am no saint - but who of us, really is?

again, i am sorry - i hope you can forgive me some day for what i did to you .. i am sorry for being so selfish back then ..

watching bach belt it out renders me on the cusp of ...

let's just say it's worth watching the whole 9 min clip just for entertainment's sake i reckon - man, does he veer off on emotional tangents .. what fools we were when we were young & in love .. OI - my tragic heart & soul deserves no less than what it dished out ..

Loso

just another nostalgic trip down memory lane .. i know it's been almost a decade & you will probably never read this, but i just wanted to send it out to the universe anyway .. thank you for being in my life - all the things we shared will never be forgotten ..

we shared a past, a history, a connection - i know now that it was all part of a grander lesson & our karmic tie is now complete & has made us both who we are today .. i hope you are truly happy where you are at now - for you were probably the first & only one (so far) who knew me whole & accepted me for everything, in spite or despite everything ..

i am deeply humbled .. thank you for showing me the depth of your love .. i am sorry for all the hurt i caused - i realise it must have been painful for you .. but know that karma has not let me get away with it ..

this dedication is for you - so you know that i understand what you went through .. there will always be a place in my soul for what you & our 'connection' has taught me - strange & bewildering as it was ..

Heart

so whilst surfing cyberspace as usual on an esoteric theme of interest of mine, i chanced upon some swami yogi guru dude who wrote the following on the authentic quest for 'self' and his simple message was that the heart ALWAYS knows - the heart ALWAYS has the answer ..

of course, i've always known this .. but it's always good to get an affirmation of sorts .. yeh ?

When your question is not intellectual but is existential,
you will find within yourself something more.

Then you will know that your mind had many questions before, but was not receptive of any answer. Only your heart, which knows only love and trust, has always been silently waiting, knowing no question.

Your mind always questions and receives no answer, your heart never questions and yet it has the answer.

It never denies connection with your being, your soul; and all that is valuable comes out from your heart - your love is a proof.

When you come to me carrying your mind you remain a disciple, your mind makes you jumping like monkeys - one branch to other, one guru to another guru; but when your heart takes over then happens a revolution; then you are no more a disciple - you are a devotee.

Your false questioning ego drops; your innocence opens your inner door of being - your step towards enlightenment - which was always there.

and so here is my song for the day / night / dusk / dawn ... 'heart' by pet shop boys ... trash bag diva at her best .. or worst .. oi, i just love the song alright !?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=12tyZRFkzFI

No Aphrodisiac

just commented on a fellow blogger's post about seasonal cycles and shifting psychological phases ..

got me thinking - well actually, it just brought me into my typical lyrical segway for a tune - an old fave by the whitlams (who's frontman i once interviewed on radio - yep, mr tim freedman) ..

the song, 'no aphrodisiac' .. simply lush with its combined piano chords & guitar accompaniments - what more could anyone ask for on a lonely cold winter's night .. a bottle of vino, daggy old slacks, a comfy lounge & some twistedly sensual & preverted lyrics .. all by your lovely lonesome self .. ahhh .. bring it on!

the stuff self-looathing masochists are made from .. haha ..

no aphrodisiac with the ACO



there's no aphrodisiac like loneliness
truth, beauty & a picture of you ..

original clip

Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover

ok, i just posted my current conundrums regarding my celibate status elsewhere on another blog .. and felt drawn to sharing yet another purge song for the day (based on this theme) ..

it's been just close to 7 months since my last tussle between the sheets, rumble in the jungle, southern action (not that there hasn't been any opportunity here or there) .. i guess i just chose not to take up on any of the subliminal offers (due to mitigating factors) - then of course, i kicked myself later on ..

what is this delayed gratification crap that has been concocted into my subconscious thinking? damn .. it’s not easy compromising when you’re having a serious bout of the lusty blues .. it hits you damn hard & damn fast - without any warning .. in the strangest of places & there’s just no releasing at that point in time .. esp. in public - then again ..

maybe it’s because i’m in my early 30’s & i’m seriously PEAKING .. and there’s no one worth attempting altitude sickness with - one-night wonders are becoming a thing of the past for me - they leave me with a bitter taste in my mouth .. jaded, transient & unfulfilled .. ‘friends with fringe benefits’ just don’t work for me either (i mean, they’re like family ya know - brothers, mates) - aaah, it’s all a bit too incestuous .. go figure! maybe there's some serious oedipal archetypal thing going on that i need to process ..

well, i ain’t in my 20’s no more .. so perhaps i should quit whining & get out there & mingle more with the uber crowd & city folk .. but i don't care for exchanging dull pleasantries (anymore) not when all i can think about is ripping off their damn shirt & going all hell for leather .. ? even then, they are few & far between right ? perhaps anonymity IS the way to go after all .. hell in a handbasket ?

urges need to be met - when the flatmate above gets it on with her boyfriend & the squeaking mattress wakes you up ALL hours of the night AND morning (and YOU ain’t gettin’ any & your girfriends call it inspiration - what the .. ?) - oi, it’s pretty tough! what was going on with that thing in the news about sydney having a man drought?

so peeps, do i take up the options that ARE available (knowing full well the ramifications & complications of a degree of separation here & there) .. or do i just hold off until the right opportunity presents itself (in whatever form or guise it chooses to come in - no pun intended there) .. ?

fcuk .. maybe this song will just have to do for the time being (releasing my conundrums)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVllKtvNHFs

‘damn i wish i was your lover’ by sophie b hawkins seems to work for me ..

Glamorous Life | Two of Hearts | We Connect

i was reminded of this funky song upon reading a status update of a facebook friend - hadn't heard this song for yonky donks, but it is 'the bomb' .. sheila e was a total babe from the 80s - u gotta dig a chic who dances while playing the drums ..

Shelia E Glamorous Life
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i just caught the last half of adam sandler's movie 'little nicky' on tv - that's the price of working graveyard shifts and being a vampire .. lol .. anyway, apart from the cameo appearances from quite a few actors and actresses like patricia arquette, harvey keitel (the devil) dana carvey & reese witherspoon, i thought it was hilarious that they kept sampling an 80's one hit (pop) wonder or disaster - depending on how you choose to look at it ..

me - i just like to get a kick out of music - whatever the genre may be .. i'm not out to be a cool indie kid, a synth pop euro wave 80's lover, a death metal fan, or an emo goth freak - i could be any one of them or all of them, so don't judge me by my music, got it?

i googled it on youtube to check out the video clip (never watched it back then) but remembered the song in high school - and i was instantly reminded of stacey q - her song 'two of hearts'' .. how strange, i thought - cos this particular song came into my head only a week ago ..

in 'little nicky', they kept sampling the bars in the song where she sings - i..i..i..i..i..i.. need .. i need you - and just for the hell of it, i also added stacey q's only other popular song 'we connect' ..

Two of Hearts

We Connect

Send Me An Angel

yeh ok, so tonight is just a continuation of yesterday's 12" onslaught .. although it was precipitated by an experience earlier in the day while i was browsing through a book in this non-denominational, all-encompassing school of thought, religion, spirituality bookstore .. or whatever other label you wish to use (yes, i do have a strong aversion to it being called new age wishy washy) ..

knowledge is power ok? but it doesn't mean you have to believe everything you read .. i always say - take what fits & ditch the rest .. it's about resonance people!

anyway, i was reading something by a guy called robert bruce on negs (psychic entities that smell like cat piss) - yeh, well i prefer that than the trashy tabloid magazines these days .. anyway, somehow it triggered this song 'send me an angel' by real life - what another flashback from the 80's .. and yes, of course it's the 12" extended version again ..

Bizarre Love Triangle

ok .. i must be on a roll tonight! 80's retro flashback somethin serious goin' on here .. lol ..

new order's 'bizarre love triangle' (the extended 12" of course) is my PENULTIMATE dance floor anthem - always has been, always will be .. don't ask me why - it just is .. this song holds so much intensity and power for me - i can't even begin to explain how or why .. i guess music just does that doesn't it ?

it could be a fleeting combination of a bar, a lyrical line or a riff or even a sample - something mysterious and unknown that stirs deep inside .. perhaps it starts with the lyrics .. and climbs slowly into a crescendo of overwhelming cataclysmic despair and delerium - a double edged sword of love, lust and emotion .. twisted, tragic and beautiful - all rolled into one ..

the colourful hues of emotion - from one extremity to the other ...

extended 12"



original clip by new order

If You Leave

OMG ... i just died and went to heaven .. i just found a couple of rare extended 12" versions of one of my all time favourite songs from the 80's classic cult chic flick 'pretty in pink' - 'if you leave' by omd (orchestral manouevres in the dark) .. fuck! the first time i saw this film was back in 1984 - it was one wet afternoon at school .. it rained during p.e. class .. so the casual p.e. teacher rented a video instead ..

i can't tell you how many times i've watched this film over and over again .. for one, the soundtrack probably started my whole love affair with the 80's - i never felt like i really participated in the 80's since i was still a kid and not a teenager or in my 20's or 30's .. so, yes i re-lived the trash 80's via the music .. but even more so, i had a huge crush on andrew mccarthy so much back then .. then the obsession turned to james spader after that ...

oohhhh ... you have no idea what goes in my head when i listen this song .. the things that never quite happened for me .. in my life - the stories i'd concoct in my head ..

you see, just as i was sitting for the SAT's to go to college in the states (i have family over there who were going to sponsor me), i ended up getting accepted into a selective high school back here in sydney and my dreams of going to an american college (doing that american high school thing) were over - just like that ..

all my fantasies - poof! disappeared in smoke .. the closest i ever got to it, was through john hughes films like this one, ferris bueller's day off & the breakfast club - lol .. man, i get so nostalgic for the wrong reasons don't i .. ?

extended 12"

original clip by OMD

Babooshka

well, it really is about time i enlighten you about my long time obsession with kate bush ..

it's as if our souls spring forth from the same fountain of quirk, an elixir of eccentricity and enigma (or so i'd like to think anyway) lol .. she is just superb for being able to channel all that creative energy into her music ..

'wuthering' heights' holds a very dear place in my musical heart (for both the song, sentiment and movie) but tonight i felt like 'babooshka' was coming through to me - having just watched kate (in an interview) explain the meaning behind the song about a wife's suspicions and paranoia that her husband was cheating on her, she concocts a scheme to create a persona in luring him - 'babooshka' which is actually 'grandmother' in russian but kate just loved the sounding of the word (having grown up thinking it had something to do with fairytales) back then ..

well somewhere in my life, it resonated with someone close to me .. the madness that must go on for some women (or men) who feel deception going on around them - the helplessness and neurosis they find themselves being drawn in can be quite destructive .. this is just another purge to the universe saying, i understand and empathise with you .. lotsa love, even though you can't tell - more than you will ever know .. truly .. xxx

Llorando

okay this is ONE of those defining soul-moving musical moments .. it came whilst watching this scene from david lynch's 'mulholland drive'. now i have always been an avid lynch fan, back in days of blue velvet, twin peaks, eraserhead and the lost highway - but this song slowly crept its way to the very edge of my twisted and temperamental soul ..

it was one of the most intense and passionate moments i had watching a song, performance and movie all in one, evoking such a tremendous and powerful stirring in my soul almost spontaneously .. i combusted there and then.

watch rebekah del rio sing 'llorando' with such effervescence - it is both haunting and beautiful, seductive and tragic .. like a feather slowly gliding over the cracks and crevasses of one's psyche in love-lorn or love-torn lust .. you could never be the same again ..

Change (Queen of the Damned)

i just posted another blog elsewhere about my love for the vampire flick 'queen of the damned', based purely on the awesome soundtrack - and yes, the movie itself is quite sensual and seductive in parts .. but i think my obsession with vampires came at a time in my life when i was embracing my shadow side (jungian psychology & robert johnson's writings) ...

there is a certain beauty in 'darkness' that most shun because they simply do not quite know how to handle their unconscious and subconscious desires. the darkness is often misunderstood for being a concept of evil in traditional western society but quite simply it is the yin to the yang, the night to the day, the sun and the moon ..

as francis bacon once said, 'there cannot be any light without dark' and vice versa - that is a whole new blog for another time altogether, but what i can say is that an implicit part of 'embracing one's shadow' is recognising and accepting one's own negative thoughts, behaviours or actions - things like fear, anger and resentment can stew away within a person without any outlet for release, but being aware of them allows me to see my 'whole' self in perspective and initiate any necessary changes (however slowly or arduously it may take).

music - especially 'dark' music can be a very cathartic, healing and soulful therapy for me - but just like chiron, the wounded healer, one can't really help heal others and the world without first going through their own pains and healing themselves to a degree ..

this video clip that i'm about to share with you is compiled from an erotic vampire scene (with fierce bloodlust tendencies) to the song 'change' by the deftones and is quite possibly my favourite song from the soundtrack .. enjoy vamplings!

Ultra Warp

i heard this song on the radio the other day by an 80's band called 'laser cowboys'. they apparently did a remix of the theme song for the american series 'knight rider'. anyway, when i heard the dj back-announce that the song was a remix from a movie made before i was born, i thought 'aha' - something 'old' and intriguing as opposed to 'uber new' and intriguing .. yes peeps, i find more fascination in retro music than ever before!

the movie - a gun-slinging fusion of robot cowboys starring yul brynner and charles brolin made in 1973; the song - a 1984 italian electro dance track remixed with snippets from the film. maybe it was the harmonica sample that got me or the damn electro synth pop beats that i love so much in general. either way, i'll be getting the flick out for sure, but in the meantime, check this clip out for yourself - fascinating i thought ..

Dream Lover

tonight's unexpected meeting with a psychic prompted a nostalgic flashback to some dreams i've had about my soul mate / twin flame - my dream lover .. this an ode to him tonight :) here's bobby darrin with 'dream lover' ..

dream lover ,where are you
with a love oh so true ..

dream lover, until then

i'll go to sleep and dream again ..

Hearts on Fire

it probably has something to do with the sax .. but my love for the 80's 'new romantics' combined with the original electro trash from the 80's will become prominent in time i'm sure .. and we all know how popular the sax was back in then .. cut copy's 'hearts on fire' came at a time when i most needed it - sure, like any repetitive chorus, the lyrics are unashamedly 'romantic' - but hey, i'm a tragic romantic at heart (again, to be made known in due course) ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN0K974SAtE

there's something in the air tonight
a feeling that you have, that could change your life
there's something burning up inside
i reach out for you and our hearts collide