it's been just close to 7 months since my last tussle between the sheets, rumble in the jungle, southern action (not that there hasn't been any opportunity here or there) .. i guess i just chose not to take up on any of the subliminal offers (due to mitigating factors) - then of course, i kicked myself later on ..
what is this delayed gratification crap that has been concocted into my subconscious thinking? damn .. it’s not easy compromising when you’re having a serious bout of the lusty blues .. it hits you damn hard & damn fast - without any warning .. in the strangest of places & there’s just no releasing at that point in time .. esp. in public - then again ..
maybe it’s because i’m in my early 30’s & i’m seriously PEAKING .. and there’s no one worth attempting altitude sickness with - one-night wonders are becoming a thing of the past for me - they leave me with a bitter taste in my mouth .. jaded, transient & unfulfilled .. ‘friends with fringe benefits’ just don’t work for me either (i mean, they’re like family ya know - brothers, mates) - aaah, it’s all a bit too incestuous .. go figure! maybe there's some serious oedipal archetypal thing going on that i need to process ..
well, i ain’t in my 20’s no more .. so perhaps i should quit whining & get out there & mingle more with the uber crowd & city folk .. but i don't care for exchanging dull pleasantries (anymore) not when all i can think about is ripping off their damn shirt & going all hell for leather .. ? even then, they are few & far between right ? perhaps anonymity IS the way to go after all .. hell in a handbasket ?
urges need to be met - when the flatmate above gets it on with her boyfriend & the squeaking mattress wakes you up ALL hours of the night AND morning (and YOU ain’t gettin’ any & your girfriends call it inspiration - what the .. ?) - oi, it’s pretty tough! what was going on with that thing in the news about sydney having a man drought?
so peeps, do i take up the options that ARE available (knowing full well the ramifications & complications of a degree of separation here & there) .. or do i just hold off until the right opportunity presents itself (in whatever form or guise it chooses to come in - no pun intended there) .. ?
fcuk .. maybe this song will just have to do for the time being (releasing my conundrums)
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6 months?!
I remember that....
I'm coming up to triple that now (well, I'm not counting an unsatisfying internet-dating site encounter a year ago).
You think you've got it bad!?
:-(
Anyway, good thing is I've had lots of energy for other great things.
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