No Aphrodisiac

just commented on a fellow blogger's post about seasonal cycles and shifting psychological phases ..

got me thinking - well actually, it just brought me into my typical lyrical segway for a tune - an old fave by the whitlams (who's frontman i once interviewed on radio - yep, mr tim freedman) ..

the song, 'no aphrodisiac' .. simply lush with its combined piano chords & guitar accompaniments - what more could anyone ask for on a lonely cold winter's night .. a bottle of vino, daggy old slacks, a comfy lounge & some twistedly sensual & preverted lyrics .. all by your lovely lonesome self .. ahhh .. bring it on!

the stuff self-looathing masochists are made from .. haha ..

no aphrodisiac with the ACO



there's no aphrodisiac like loneliness
truth, beauty & a picture of you ..

original clip

Damn I Wish I Was Your Lover

ok, i just posted my current conundrums regarding my celibate status elsewhere on another blog .. and felt drawn to sharing yet another purge song for the day (based on this theme) ..

it's been just close to 7 months since my last tussle between the sheets, rumble in the jungle, southern action (not that there hasn't been any opportunity here or there) .. i guess i just chose not to take up on any of the subliminal offers (due to mitigating factors) - then of course, i kicked myself later on ..

what is this delayed gratification crap that has been concocted into my subconscious thinking? damn .. it’s not easy compromising when you’re having a serious bout of the lusty blues .. it hits you damn hard & damn fast - without any warning .. in the strangest of places & there’s just no releasing at that point in time .. esp. in public - then again ..

maybe it’s because i’m in my early 30’s & i’m seriously PEAKING .. and there’s no one worth attempting altitude sickness with - one-night wonders are becoming a thing of the past for me - they leave me with a bitter taste in my mouth .. jaded, transient & unfulfilled .. ‘friends with fringe benefits’ just don’t work for me either (i mean, they’re like family ya know - brothers, mates) - aaah, it’s all a bit too incestuous .. go figure! maybe there's some serious oedipal archetypal thing going on that i need to process ..

well, i ain’t in my 20’s no more .. so perhaps i should quit whining & get out there & mingle more with the uber crowd & city folk .. but i don't care for exchanging dull pleasantries (anymore) not when all i can think about is ripping off their damn shirt & going all hell for leather .. ? even then, they are few & far between right ? perhaps anonymity IS the way to go after all .. hell in a handbasket ?

urges need to be met - when the flatmate above gets it on with her boyfriend & the squeaking mattress wakes you up ALL hours of the night AND morning (and YOU ain’t gettin’ any & your girfriends call it inspiration - what the .. ?) - oi, it’s pretty tough! what was going on with that thing in the news about sydney having a man drought?

so peeps, do i take up the options that ARE available (knowing full well the ramifications & complications of a degree of separation here & there) .. or do i just hold off until the right opportunity presents itself (in whatever form or guise it chooses to come in - no pun intended there) .. ?

fcuk .. maybe this song will just have to do for the time being (releasing my conundrums)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fVllKtvNHFs

‘damn i wish i was your lover’ by sophie b hawkins seems to work for me ..

Glamorous Life | Two of Hearts | We Connect

i was reminded of this funky song upon reading a status update of a facebook friend - hadn't heard this song for yonky donks, but it is 'the bomb' .. sheila e was a total babe from the 80s - u gotta dig a chic who dances while playing the drums ..

Shelia E Glamorous Life
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i just caught the last half of adam sandler's movie 'little nicky' on tv - that's the price of working graveyard shifts and being a vampire .. lol .. anyway, apart from the cameo appearances from quite a few actors and actresses like patricia arquette, harvey keitel (the devil) dana carvey & reese witherspoon, i thought it was hilarious that they kept sampling an 80's one hit (pop) wonder or disaster - depending on how you choose to look at it ..

me - i just like to get a kick out of music - whatever the genre may be .. i'm not out to be a cool indie kid, a synth pop euro wave 80's lover, a death metal fan, or an emo goth freak - i could be any one of them or all of them, so don't judge me by my music, got it?

i googled it on youtube to check out the video clip (never watched it back then) but remembered the song in high school - and i was instantly reminded of stacey q - her song 'two of hearts'' .. how strange, i thought - cos this particular song came into my head only a week ago ..

in 'little nicky', they kept sampling the bars in the song where she sings - i..i..i..i..i..i.. need .. i need you - and just for the hell of it, i also added stacey q's only other popular song 'we connect' ..

Two of Hearts

We Connect

Send Me An Angel

yeh ok, so tonight is just a continuation of yesterday's 12" onslaught .. although it was precipitated by an experience earlier in the day while i was browsing through a book in this non-denominational, all-encompassing school of thought, religion, spirituality bookstore .. or whatever other label you wish to use (yes, i do have a strong aversion to it being called new age wishy washy) ..

knowledge is power ok? but it doesn't mean you have to believe everything you read .. i always say - take what fits & ditch the rest .. it's about resonance people!

anyway, i was reading something by a guy called robert bruce on negs (psychic entities that smell like cat piss) - yeh, well i prefer that than the trashy tabloid magazines these days .. anyway, somehow it triggered this song 'send me an angel' by real life - what another flashback from the 80's .. and yes, of course it's the 12" extended version again ..

Bizarre Love Triangle

ok .. i must be on a roll tonight! 80's retro flashback somethin serious goin' on here .. lol ..

new order's 'bizarre love triangle' (the extended 12" of course) is my PENULTIMATE dance floor anthem - always has been, always will be .. don't ask me why - it just is .. this song holds so much intensity and power for me - i can't even begin to explain how or why .. i guess music just does that doesn't it ?

it could be a fleeting combination of a bar, a lyrical line or a riff or even a sample - something mysterious and unknown that stirs deep inside .. perhaps it starts with the lyrics .. and climbs slowly into a crescendo of overwhelming cataclysmic despair and delerium - a double edged sword of love, lust and emotion .. twisted, tragic and beautiful - all rolled into one ..

the colourful hues of emotion - from one extremity to the other ...

extended 12"



original clip by new order

If You Leave

OMG ... i just died and went to heaven .. i just found a couple of rare extended 12" versions of one of my all time favourite songs from the 80's classic cult chic flick 'pretty in pink' - 'if you leave' by omd (orchestral manouevres in the dark) .. fuck! the first time i saw this film was back in 1984 - it was one wet afternoon at school .. it rained during p.e. class .. so the casual p.e. teacher rented a video instead ..

i can't tell you how many times i've watched this film over and over again .. for one, the soundtrack probably started my whole love affair with the 80's - i never felt like i really participated in the 80's since i was still a kid and not a teenager or in my 20's or 30's .. so, yes i re-lived the trash 80's via the music .. but even more so, i had a huge crush on andrew mccarthy so much back then .. then the obsession turned to james spader after that ...

oohhhh ... you have no idea what goes in my head when i listen this song .. the things that never quite happened for me .. in my life - the stories i'd concoct in my head ..

you see, just as i was sitting for the SAT's to go to college in the states (i have family over there who were going to sponsor me), i ended up getting accepted into a selective high school back here in sydney and my dreams of going to an american college (doing that american high school thing) were over - just like that ..

all my fantasies - poof! disappeared in smoke .. the closest i ever got to it, was through john hughes films like this one, ferris bueller's day off & the breakfast club - lol .. man, i get so nostalgic for the wrong reasons don't i .. ?

extended 12"

original clip by OMD

Babooshka

well, it really is about time i enlighten you about my long time obsession with kate bush ..

it's as if our souls spring forth from the same fountain of quirk, an elixir of eccentricity and enigma (or so i'd like to think anyway) lol .. she is just superb for being able to channel all that creative energy into her music ..

'wuthering' heights' holds a very dear place in my musical heart (for both the song, sentiment and movie) but tonight i felt like 'babooshka' was coming through to me - having just watched kate (in an interview) explain the meaning behind the song about a wife's suspicions and paranoia that her husband was cheating on her, she concocts a scheme to create a persona in luring him - 'babooshka' which is actually 'grandmother' in russian but kate just loved the sounding of the word (having grown up thinking it had something to do with fairytales) back then ..

well somewhere in my life, it resonated with someone close to me .. the madness that must go on for some women (or men) who feel deception going on around them - the helplessness and neurosis they find themselves being drawn in can be quite destructive .. this is just another purge to the universe saying, i understand and empathise with you .. lotsa love, even though you can't tell - more than you will ever know .. truly .. xxx

Llorando

okay this is ONE of those defining soul-moving musical moments .. it came whilst watching this scene from david lynch's 'mulholland drive'. now i have always been an avid lynch fan, back in days of blue velvet, twin peaks, eraserhead and the lost highway - but this song slowly crept its way to the very edge of my twisted and temperamental soul ..

it was one of the most intense and passionate moments i had watching a song, performance and movie all in one, evoking such a tremendous and powerful stirring in my soul almost spontaneously .. i combusted there and then.

watch rebekah del rio sing 'llorando' with such effervescence - it is both haunting and beautiful, seductive and tragic .. like a feather slowly gliding over the cracks and crevasses of one's psyche in love-lorn or love-torn lust .. you could never be the same again ..

Change (Queen of the Damned)

i just posted another blog elsewhere about my love for the vampire flick 'queen of the damned', based purely on the awesome soundtrack - and yes, the movie itself is quite sensual and seductive in parts .. but i think my obsession with vampires came at a time in my life when i was embracing my shadow side (jungian psychology & robert johnson's writings) ...

there is a certain beauty in 'darkness' that most shun because they simply do not quite know how to handle their unconscious and subconscious desires. the darkness is often misunderstood for being a concept of evil in traditional western society but quite simply it is the yin to the yang, the night to the day, the sun and the moon ..

as francis bacon once said, 'there cannot be any light without dark' and vice versa - that is a whole new blog for another time altogether, but what i can say is that an implicit part of 'embracing one's shadow' is recognising and accepting one's own negative thoughts, behaviours or actions - things like fear, anger and resentment can stew away within a person without any outlet for release, but being aware of them allows me to see my 'whole' self in perspective and initiate any necessary changes (however slowly or arduously it may take).

music - especially 'dark' music can be a very cathartic, healing and soulful therapy for me - but just like chiron, the wounded healer, one can't really help heal others and the world without first going through their own pains and healing themselves to a degree ..

this video clip that i'm about to share with you is compiled from an erotic vampire scene (with fierce bloodlust tendencies) to the song 'change' by the deftones and is quite possibly my favourite song from the soundtrack .. enjoy vamplings!

Ultra Warp

i heard this song on the radio the other day by an 80's band called 'laser cowboys'. they apparently did a remix of the theme song for the american series 'knight rider'. anyway, when i heard the dj back-announce that the song was a remix from a movie made before i was born, i thought 'aha' - something 'old' and intriguing as opposed to 'uber new' and intriguing .. yes peeps, i find more fascination in retro music than ever before!

the movie - a gun-slinging fusion of robot cowboys starring yul brynner and charles brolin made in 1973; the song - a 1984 italian electro dance track remixed with snippets from the film. maybe it was the harmonica sample that got me or the damn electro synth pop beats that i love so much in general. either way, i'll be getting the flick out for sure, but in the meantime, check this clip out for yourself - fascinating i thought ..

Dream Lover

tonight's unexpected meeting with a psychic prompted a nostalgic flashback to some dreams i've had about my soul mate / twin flame - my dream lover .. this an ode to him tonight :) here's bobby darrin with 'dream lover' ..

dream lover ,where are you
with a love oh so true ..

dream lover, until then

i'll go to sleep and dream again ..

Hearts on Fire

it probably has something to do with the sax .. but my love for the 80's 'new romantics' combined with the original electro trash from the 80's will become prominent in time i'm sure .. and we all know how popular the sax was back in then .. cut copy's 'hearts on fire' came at a time when i most needed it - sure, like any repetitive chorus, the lyrics are unashamedly 'romantic' - but hey, i'm a tragic romantic at heart (again, to be made known in due course) ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hN0K974SAtE

there's something in the air tonight
a feeling that you have, that could change your life
there's something burning up inside
i reach out for you and our hearts collide